it's almost a year, it feels like forever, i can't imagine my life otherwise.
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So if you wake up to the sunrise, and all your dreams are still as new,
and happiness is what you need so bad, girl, the answer lies with you.
29 September 2009 @ 11:28 pm
Are you one of those people who constantly checks the time?
i do sometimes
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
yessss
Anyone you were good friends with, that you no longer get along with?
mhm.
Who came over yesterday?
andrew.
If your best friend said they were running away, what would you say?
not to go.
Do you have a big secret?
no.
In school, how was/is your attendance record?
alright.
What would you do if you found out one of your friends was going for the person that you like?
they wouldn't by my friend.
Would you rather be called sweetie or honey?
thomas calls me both.
What do you think of cats and dogs?
<3333
When did you last eat pizza?
bacos at thomas' house
Is your sister a slut?
hah.
Pepsi or coke?
neither.
Would you like the ability to read minds?
very much.
Do you go by your first or middle name?
First.
Do you have a friend that is a complete total flirt around everyone?
mhm.
What does your last text message say and who from?
"mmm me too!!!" from thomas
Do you plan on having sex in the next year?
lol.
Have you done anything illegal in the past week?
nonope.
Do you and your mother have a good relationship?
not right now no.
What about your father?
its alright
Do you drink alcohol?
beeeer
Last time you held hands with someone?
when i saw thomas.
Have you ever cheated on anyone?
Nope.
Do you believe in karma?
very much.
Do you know anybody whose last name is a color?
no :(
Do you pay with cash, credit/debit, or checks most often?
cashhhh.
Are you an argumentative person?
I can be.
Did you know that toothpaste removes crayon from walls?
no.
Have you ever just completely ignored someone?
mhm.
Ever kissed the same sex?
No.
Does it take a lot out of you to give out your number?
sometimes
Plans for tommorrow?
THOMAS!!!!! :) ahhh yay relaxation.
Do you have a boyfriend/
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How old are you?
i will be 19 in two days.
Do you act older or younger?
i think i act my age.
Does it matter to you if the person you're with drinks?
i like his beer breath. lol.
Who was the last person you told a personal story to?
thomas.
Do you hate when people call you when you're sleeping?
certain people
Do you have any plans for the weekend?
mhm.
When did you meet the last male you texted?
December.
Are you currently looking forward to anything?
birthday bash and tomorrow.
Do you care too much/not at all/just enough?
all of that.
What's the backround on your phone?
grey
Are you currently looking forward to tomorrow?
tomorrow night.
Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
no i hope not.
What color shirt are you wearing?
gray
Would you rather have long or short hair?
long
What's something you really want right now?
tomorrow night
Do you know anyone who has AIDS?
No.
What can you hear right now?
the tv
Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?
mhm.
Are you dating the last boy you talked to?
yeah. you could say that.
Something that happened today that made you angry?
lotsss.
Do you wear makeup?
always
What do your friends call you?
Gabby, Gab, Abby
Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
couch.
Are you a shy person?
sometimes.
Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
leggings.
Do you ever feel curious about how people see you?
mhm self concious is more like it,
Something tragic just happened, does your facial expression show it?
mhm
So, what do you want for your birthday?
YAYYYYY 2 DAYS!
Whats the last concert you went to?
grateful dead with thomas.
What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
thumb
Have you ever made out with the last boy/girl you texted?
mhmm i love kissing him.
If you could find one long lost friend of the past, who would it be?
hmmm.
Llamas?
cute
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
mhmm
What woke you up this morning?
what didnt.
When did you last receive a text message?
2 minutes ago.
How's your hair looking?
nasty
Would you prefer a kiss on the cheek or neck?
tha depends on my mood.
Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now?
mhm.
Currently waiting on something/
nope.
Do you have a person you can lean on?
mhm. :)
23 September 2009 @ 01:49 am
20 September 2009 @ 12:46 pm
Today is a gorgeous day.
i've seen thomas so much this week. he makes me life less stressful.
tuesday he came over to help paint halloween props he left after i left for class.
then wednesday i didn't go to math because i had to pick my grandparents up at the airport. i took a poor mans lunchbox thinking it was my grandfathers, and he had his medicine in it, i felt horrible.
thursday i went to thomas' house and we watched t.v. and argued over who should go to the doctors and had a pillow fight.
friday was the jewish new years, and thomas came over for dinner we watched john mayer, it was nice.
yesterday was mommys birthday and thomas came with us to the rennisiance fair. i was really stressed and wasn't feeling good. ugh he's so sweet.
we finally fell asleep together. :) mm.
i've seen thomas so much this week. he makes me life less stressful.
tuesday he came over to help paint halloween props he left after i left for class.
then wednesday i didn't go to math because i had to pick my grandparents up at the airport. i took a poor mans lunchbox thinking it was my grandfathers, and he had his medicine in it, i felt horrible.
thursday i went to thomas' house and we watched t.v. and argued over who should go to the doctors and had a pillow fight.
friday was the jewish new years, and thomas came over for dinner we watched john mayer, it was nice.
yesterday was mommys birthday and thomas came with us to the rennisiance fair. i was really stressed and wasn't feeling good. ugh he's so sweet.
we finally fell asleep together. :) mm.
05 September 2009 @ 10:01 am
Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
the computer screen. because my cousin nick, stole my back up quaterback.
What kind of car do you drive?
mercury sable, but hopefully soon a Nissan Cube.
Have you ever had a garage sale?
mhm.
What color is your iPod?
silver.
What kind of dog do you have?
golden retrievers.
What's for dinner tonight?
who knows..
What is the last drink you drank?
milk.
Last time you were sick?
ugh.
How long is your hair?
i just got it cut, its just past my shoulders.
Are you happy right now?
yes, especially after last night.
What did you say last?
"can someone lower this fan"
Who came over last?
andrew.
Do you drink beer?
i enjoy it.
Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
yes. when i was little..
What is your favorite key chain on your keys?
my silver heart, it was my grandmothers.
What is in your pocket?
no pockets.
Who introduced you to your boyfriend or girlfriend?
we sort of met through max..
Who is the last person you had a phone conversation with?
shawn.
What DVD is in your DVD player?
Zeppelin.
What's something fun you did today?
football draft.
What do you think of when you hear the word "meow"?
sadie.
What are you listening to right now?
nothing. daddy talking.
What have you had to drink so far today?
milk from my cereal.
When is your birthday?
October 1st.
What's the area code for your cell phone?
732.
Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
i got it in a DVD set.
Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror?
no
How many states in the U.S. have you been to?
15
What are you going to do after this?
back to sleep.
What is something you need to go shopping for?
good pair of pants.
Do you like pickles?
eh only sometimes.
How about olives?
sometimes.
What is your favorite kind of gum?
fruity one.
Do you have any tan lines?
a little.
Do you remember the name of your kindergarten teacher?
Ms. G.
Who was the last person to call you baby?
thomas.
When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout?
sometimes.
Has anyone ever sang to you?
mhm.
Has anyone ever given you roses?
hehe i got some last night. :)
If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
i'd do pretty good.
What is your favorite color?
all of them.
What color are your eyes?
brown
What is a compliment you receive way too often?
"you have a wonderful speaking voice"
How tall are you?
64 inches
Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
Thomas, last night.
Where is the furthest place you've traveled?
Handoras.
Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
sleep.
Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
i deff look like both.
How long does it take you to shower?
an hour.
Can you use the grill?
yep, i always cook on the grill.
What movie do you want to see?
Cloud with a chance of meatballs.
Was your mom a cheerleader?
no.
What is the last letter of your middle name?
a
How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
9.
Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
yes
Are you scared of flying?
sometimes.
What do you sleep in?
a bed.
Have you ever been to Los Angeles?
No.
What jewelry do you wear all the time?
grandparents rings.
What is your favorite song at the moment?
ugh i have too many.
What song do you HATE?
any beegee's songs.
Do you like chocolate?
mhm.
Are you easy to get along with?
i think so.
Any up coming events you're excited about?
birthday.
When was the last time you shaved your legs?
yesterday.
What were you doing this morning at 8?
sleep.
What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
this
What are you wearing right now?
pjays.
Are you mad at anyone right now?
not at all.
The last two people to say they loved you?
Thomas and my grandpa.
Kissed someone in the last 24 hrs?
mmmmmmmmm yes.
Are you happy with your living arrangements?
ugh.
Last thing received in the mail?
coupons.
How is your hair?
shitty.
Are you any good at math?
nope.
What did you do Friday night?
i spent it with thomas.
Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
yeah.
Are you taken for granted?
lots of times.
Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
mhm.
Do you like the ocean?
yes
Did you stay friends with your ex's?
sigh.
What did you do two nights ago?
left for home
Are any of your great-
nope.
Do you remember the most naughty night of your life?
yes
Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
with thomas.
What was the weather like on your birthday?
i'm not sure i was inside the whole time.
03 September 2009 @ 05:22 pm
Hello, who might you be?
Gabrielle.
WHAT: Happened at 9:00 am today ?
i woke daddy up
ARE YOU: Wearing something you borrowed from someone?
nope.
WHAT: Is the last thing someone bought you?
thomas bought me presents, but i wont know what they are until i get home.
WHAT'S: Your current problem?
i'm stuck in florida and my foot is itchy.
Do YOU: Crack your knuckles?
Yes, all the time.
DID YOU: Cry at all today ?
nope.
Ever turned anyone down you shouldn't have?
yeah. sigh.
Do you swallow gum when your done with it?
ew.
Are you usually wide awake in the mornings?
pretty much.
How many times have you lied today ?
none.
Are you in the middle of texting someone?
well, i'm texting and on the computer at the same time.
Would you tattoo someone's name on your body?
nope. never.
Could you use some cheering up right now?
i can use some, new jersey right now.
Are your fingernails painted black ?
nope, i just got them done actually. they are clear and french tip, but the white is really big.
Favorite Christmas song?
White Christmas.. but there are others i think..
Would you be a pirate?
no, the word pirate comes from "pig eater"
Have you smiled recently?
mhm.
Best bed sheets as a child ?
eh.
Do you like to cuddle?
very much.
If you had to; would you rather kill an old person or a little baby?
not at all.
How old do you want to be when you get engaged?
25ish.
What is the most important part of your life?
love. of people (family & friends) and nature.
love= happiness.
What would you rather be doing ?
be home.
Have you ever been out of the country?
yes, i just got back.
Where is your favorite place to be?
with thomas outside.
What does your last text message say? From?
"hes such a loser tool..hes a walking joke.. but why what happend.. want me to kick his ass" in response to me talking about what a nasty person dan leed is.
Do you miss anyone?
very much.
What are you listening to?
the game.
What are you going to do when your done with this survey?
see if the pizza is ready.
Whats wrong?
my bra is itching me.
Who was the last person you hugged?
nonno.
Gabrielle.
WHAT: Happened at 9:00 am today ?
i woke daddy up
ARE YOU: Wearing something you borrowed from someone?
nope.
WHAT: Is the last thing someone bought you?
thomas bought me presents, but i wont know what they are until i get home.
WHAT'S: Your current problem?
i'm stuck in florida and my foot is itchy.
Do YOU: Crack your knuckles?
Yes, all the time.
DID YOU: Cry at all today ?
nope.
Ever turned anyone down you shouldn't have?
yeah. sigh.
Do you swallow gum when your done with it?
ew.
Are you usually wide awake in the mornings?
pretty much.
How many times have you lied today ?
none.
Are you in the middle of texting someone?
well, i'm texting and on the computer at the same time.
Would you tattoo someone's name on your body?
nope. never.
Could you use some cheering up right now?
i can use some, new jersey right now.
Are your fingernails painted black ?
nope, i just got them done actually. they are clear and french tip, but the white is really big.
Favorite Christmas song?
White Christmas.. but there are others i think..
Would you be a pirate?
no, the word pirate comes from "pig eater"
Have you smiled recently?
mhm.
Best bed sheets as a child ?
eh.
Do you like to cuddle?
very much.
If you had to; would you rather kill an old person or a little baby?
not at all.
How old do you want to be when you get engaged?
25ish.
What is the most important part of your life?
love. of people (family & friends) and nature.
love= happiness.
What would you rather be doing ?
be home.
Have you ever been out of the country?
yes, i just got back.
Where is your favorite place to be?
with thomas outside.
What does your last text message say? From?
"hes such a loser tool..hes a walking joke.. but why what happend.. want me to kick his ass" in response to me talking about what a nasty person dan leed is.
Do you miss anyone?
very much.
What are you listening to?
the game.
What are you going to do when your done with this survey?
see if the pizza is ready.
Whats wrong?
my bra is itching me.
Who was the last person you hugged?
nonno.
31 August 2009 @ 09:31 pm
I miss thomas. and home.
i want the fall.
my trip was alright.
i want to be comfy and cuddle.
i want the fall.
my trip was alright.
i want to be comfy and cuddle.
07 August 2009 @ 01:53 am
1. What time did you get up this morning?
9ish
2. How do you like your steak cooked?
I don't eat steak.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Across The Universe.
4. What is your favorite TV show?
Jeopardy
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
A pretty place with mountains, the beach, a lake or ocean, trees. mm :)
6. What did you have for breakfast
french toast
7. What is your favorite song?
i don't really have one.
8. What foods do you dislike?
meat.
9. Favorite Place to Eat?
hmm. the sushi place thomas took me too was really good.
10. Favorite dressing?
italian. russian.
11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?
2001 sable-tooth.
12. What are your favorite clothes?
jammies
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? lots of places.
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? eh.
15. Where would you want to retire? i'm not sure.
16. Favorite time of day? i'm not sure either.
17. Where were you born? Staten Island.
18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Football.
19. Who do you think will not stab you in theback?
what a question.
20. Who do you trust the most?
thomas believe it or not.
21. What is your favorite pair of shoes?
i hate shoes.
22. Are you satisfied with your life?
you can only be. and if you don't it's up to you to change it.
23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
both i'd say.
24. Do you have any pets?
Sadie, Fatty, Star, Kiki, Loki, Frea, The Fishtank fish, degus, monitor lizard, other lizards, bearded dragons, uh, tartantula andddd mice lots of mice. and Alby.
25. If you only had one day to live, who would you spend it with? Thomas.
26. What did you want to be when you were little? A kangaroo.
27. What is your best childhood memory? wow i have a lot.
28. Are you a cat or dog person? both.
29. Are you married? negative, only 18.
30. Always wear your seat belt? always.
31. Been in a car accident? omg, i'm going to be jinxed now.
32. Any pet peeves? lots and lots.
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? basil, fresh mozzeralla, and tomato sauce.
34. Favorite Flower? Lisianthus, Roses, Begonias, Dandilions, hydrengea, daisys, soooo many.. ugh.
35. Favorite ice cream? soft chocolate
25 July 2009 @ 03:08 am
Are You Single?
That's debateable, i'm really happy though.
Do You Have a Crush On Anyone Right Now?
yes. yes.
First Kiss
trampoline
Used Someone?
mutually.
Lied to your bf/gf?
no.
Ever Made out With Just a Friend?
yeah.
Are You a Tease?
nope.
Do you Flirt a Lot?
only if i want to.
.
Have you Ever Gotten a Poem?
yes.
Ever Get Flowers?
for valentines day this year
Sweetest Thing You've Ever Gotten
oswald.
Do you Like Valentine's Day or Sweetest Day?
Valentines day.
Do you Believe in Love at First Sight?
possibly, it only takes you so far.
Do you Fall in Love Fast?
I tried not to.
Are you a Player?
no.
Would you ever Hook Up With Someone of the Same sex?
nope.
Have You ever Kissed 2 People in One Day?
yes.
Ever cried over someone of the opposite sex?
yes, recently thomas, but he cried with me.
Ever Been Dumped?
boo.
Ever dumped someone?
no, actually yes.
Ever been rejected?
no.
Do you have a lot of ex's?
two.
Ever dated someone more than once?
yes.
Do you ever make the first move?
never.
Double dates or single?
single ones are more romantic. but double dates are okay.
Do you want to get married?
eventually.
09 November 2008 @ 05:44 pm
Friday night was terrific.
I went up to raritan valley college with the guys and karen for the tournament, afterwards we went out to applebees.
It truely was a wonderful night and i think i was laughing pretty much the entire time.
They are prossibly the best bunch of guys i've been around in years.
It's refreshing to go out and not have to worry about anything, well you know besides getting home ever so extremely late.
There is no blabber, of whos doing what, whats doing who, and all that stupid high school shit.
It's just really nice.
My dad found out about my bud, i guess my mom told him.
he was really cool about it though, which is awesome.
He's also accepting me leaving and so on a lot more, which i think is really good for both of us.
He and i are running a fantasy football team together, and if we win tonight, we'll be in first place, not tied for it which is awesome.
Everyday, i believe in god more and more and more.
i'm not sure i believe in him anymore than i already did, but I just kind of feel closer to him.
then again, at the same time i feel closer to myself.
I'm very career and goal oriented right now at this stage in my life.
i'm an extremely hardheadded person, and i'm very determined when i want to be.
I anticipate going to college out west more and more every second.
Once this semester is over, i know i'll be able to relax and have some more leway with things.
Each day i get closer and closer to that freedom and indipendance i've been searching for, working for and fighting for, for so long.
Personally I believe i've matured more over this past year than any before.
I mean, i can see bigger changes in me than ever before.
A lot of it is because of my envolvement in the FFA. You know Mrs. Trivette always says "we're not here to make you good state officers, we're here to make you a better person" or something a long the lines of that. And I've learned a lot this past 6 months as a state officer about how to be a better person, a more mature person, and how to adapt to the real world. A lot of my growing up has to do with just my age and chocies i've been faced with and the past and current expeirences i've had. At times i get terrified, i get so scared, i fear everything, from the classes i'm taking, to what i want to be when i'm older, to who i speak to, to what i learn. Everything i do scared me.
I think now i've realized it's nonsene to be scared. It's life, and though things might be intimidating, it's my life, my decisions, and to face it. Fear never leads to anything good. but at the same time its okay to fear, it just adds on to my charachter, i just have to face it and not let it stop me, or break me.
I'm done with being broken, or letting things get to me. I'm a very very very passionate person, but honestly i don't think things can break me anymore. A lot of the things i've been dealing with lately, have helped me cope with other things. I can get my hopes up, and i can be hert, but it doesn't faze me anymore, not even close to what it used to.
things that bother me are things like how I don't feel pretty anymore. Not at all, not in the least bit, a lot of people don't know that about me, but i know it. I don't feel like a pretty person, whether its the way i look, the clothes i'm wearing, how fat i am, the break outs on my face, the white blotchy complection of my skin, my horrible unmanageable hair, or the person i am inside, the way i speak to people, how i judge people, and so one. there is bad in the world, but more beauty than anything, i feel like a peice of coal in a gold mine. if that makes sense.
My mom and i went to a baby shower yesterday, there was a nice family,and the girl (kelly) who's having the baby is a sweet heart. while i was there i met this very old woman, i think she said she was like 82. She came over from england in 1955 because she married an american in england. She has 6 children, and is very happy even if she hasn't been to her home country in 45 years and can't go back becasue she can't fly on a plane with her oxygen tank.. Well this woman has Lung cancer. she had it in her right lung and beat it, but she now has it in her left long. She was so cheerful about it, she said "i'm not worried about it because i'm going to beat it." She had so much faith in beating this cancer at her age, while breathing through tubes. God bless that woman, she really is amazing.
I've been looking up Libras and man am i one.
anyway on the same lines of music, I love queen's new CD, and Kenny Chesney's.
also, i love the king of leon. and the allman brothers, yes them too.
yes.04 November 2008 @ 11:32 pm
Dear America,
You disappoint me greatly.
I have no faith in the citizens of this country anymore.
you really really make me sick.
02 November 2008 @ 10:36 pm
27 October 2008 @ 04:19 pm
There is not one thing in this world that makes me want to stay anymore.
I sencerly mean that.
And there is nothing that holds meaning in my heart.
I'm a cold hearted, black stone hearted person.
The reason This place, these people, it makes me sick.
I haven't heard something so beautiful in the longest time.
20 October 2008 @ 11:19 pm
indiana in the a.m.
i love tom petty
i hate boys.
actually, no, i hate girls.
dodgeball is awesome.
i love tom petty
i hate boys.
actually, no, i hate girls.
dodgeball is awesome.
10 October 2008 @ 01:26 am
A's in all my classes.
at first there was a mishap with comp. but thats fixed now.
i just got my grade for my bio exam, a 98 the highest grade in the class. yayy.
deans lissst.
i've decided that i really do just want to go to ferrum. i mean they'll practically pay for me to go there, and also, they have a small intamite class room evironment. better for learning than like rutgers. and then when i get my masters a Vtech, the classes will be small because they will be masters programs and most people arent into what i am. so it should be good then.
other than that. Life is alright, right now.
No i don't have any boys in my life, and i'm actually okay with it.
i have to go to indiana in about two weeks and im actually not stressed about it.
LEAD was awesome and people actually looked up to me and made me feel like a state officer for the first time ever.
Becky is moving to cali in about two months and i've just faced it and accepted it.
My sister Janelle is coming up for a week or two, with darian and the baby, and i really miss them.
I am 18 and cconfused about what i want to be and what im doing with my life but i'm okay with it.
i'm just okay with things.
i'm facing it. everything is okay.
it's life.
this is one of my fav songs: its just the music
anyway, i'm excited for tomorrow night.
even though i dont have the car tomorrow night and i have no way of getting there.